I can’t get enough of this song Hearing Damage by Thom Yorke. I can’t understand why it does something to me. I feel so moved and so taken up by this song. It rips out every emotion that I take so much time to bury within me and pulls it all out of me.. I feel so vulnerable about my emotions because I’m so sensitive and people have had the opportunity to take advantage of that in the past…so I take so much effort to hide it. Sometimes its the emotional baggage that I’ve taken years to bury… sometimes its just the daily strain I feel weighing down on me.. but it just takes it all out whatever it is that’s pent up within me..like some sort of detoxification. Depending on the mood I am in it chokes me up when I feel raw and I’m not ready to feel so exposed. Other times I just submit to the overpowering emotion and it evokes tears from the relief of feeling the stress being stripped away from me as I get into the song.. It makes me feel lighter as I am turned inside out.
There’s a lot of music that I listen to but I feel like this is on another plane. Obviously not even close to Tool. I don’t think nothing will ever come close to Tool. It’s one of those gifts that people don’t know that exists in the world. They think its just music. Another band, another record. It’s right there in front of them but you have to be open to let it embrace you or you will just pass it by without even knowing how life changing it could have been for you. Tool is so immense that that I am sometimes intimidated to even listen to it. I have to prepare my body and mind to be able to listen to it and take it in. Like meditation. I have not even nicked the glacier when it comes to Tool but I still feel like I am such a different person because of it. I can’t even imagine how much more there is to know and the experience of embracing all of it completely. I am grateful to Gojira for introducing me to Tool. I wonder what kind of life I’d be living if I never came across it. If nothing ever happens to us I’ll be thankful that he at least was able to open my eyes and ears and give me the gift of Tool.
Note: Just now as I was looking on Amazon to see if Thom Yorke had his own album with Hearing Damage on it, I read that he is the lead singer of Radiohead. It’s so fucking mind blowing how this is all connected. Radiohead is another one of my favorites that I’ve recently gotten into after it was suggested to me by a number of people (including gojira). I put Radiohead at par with Porcupine Tree. They both have emotion evoking songs… Insane Insane Insane….
Currently listening to Hearing Damage- Thom Yorke
New Moon Soundtrack: Deluxe Edition (CD & DVD)