Gojira’s birthday around the corner..

So Gojira’s birthday is coming up.. I’m so excited and I know it’s never a day he looks forward to but I cant resist the urge to try and make it special and celebrate it in the best way I know how. First I was thinking a Tool tshirt or some sort of Tool clothing. Here are some of my favorite Tool tshirt prints:

(damn this dress is hot, i want)

But then I thought there will always be Tool tshirts. It’s the limited edition Tool merchandise that I need to focus on, which later maybe 10 years down the line will be rare to find. A while back I had seen these Revolver magazines that were featuring Tool on their cover and I was planning on getting them and then suddenly after searching for them I couldn’t find them. I completely freaked out. I googled and googled and it seemed to have disappeared off the face of the Internet. I began thinking maybe they had sold all their copies and they had removed that magazine for sale. The fact that I couldn’t remember which magazine cover they were featured on made the search all the more difficult. But somehow I finally found it again and they were indeed still there.. and may I add, waiting to be bought by some diehard Tool fan :P So I didn’t lose my chance and got them for his birthday. I ordered it and they will be coming by the end of this week :D I’m so happy and excited. There are 2 different Tool covers and so I ordered both. Here are some awesome sneak previews of the magazine they were featured on:

Isn’t it hawt.. <3 Can’t wait till it comes in the mail so I can take play-by-play pictures of opening the package and the magazine itself. if the magazine is sealed in plastic I might just leave it for Gojira to open when he comes here..  But obviously this is not enough to make it speshul…:P I want to pamper him and make him happy.. If he was here I would have baked him a Tool inspired birthday cake… This girl did one which I found while browsing but I think I could do a way better job.. I will try next year hopefully :) If you’re interesting in following this tutorial to make your own Tool cake you can do so here.

This is the interesting thing about fate.. I had no idea what the 2nd gift I was getting Gojira for his birthday. Day before yesterday I was looking for a Tool logo on Google Images and it showed a pendant of one of the Tool eyes. I almost jumped out of my skin in excitement. It is so hot and so damn classy. And its the same eye he has tattoed on his arm.. I put my order in for it today :D and its got the signature of Alex Grey impressed on the back.

When I clicked on the image of the pendant it led me to this cool website selling a bunch of Alex Grey and Tool merchandise. I so badly wanted to get him the Vicarious DVD signed by Alex Grey himself but it turns out his brother already got him that same DVD last month.

I like Alex Grey’s work. But I get shivers down my spine from the rush of looking at Cam De Leon’s artwork. Alex Grey, Cam De Leon and Peter Westermann are my ultimate favorite artists of all time. These are few of my favorite pieces…When I get settled down I will adorn the walls of my home with their artwork.. I can so envision it..

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cam de leon's

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peter westermann's

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Speaking of Tool, since when did a department stores like JCPenney start selling unconventional items like a Tool shirt? It shocked the daylights out of me yesterday when I saw this.. weird..  You have to see this to believe it…

anyways its a good deal too good to pass up so I’m going to call the nearest one to my house and ask them if they have any available. Wish me luck that they have them in stock..!!  This light is turned off…

craving a vampire novel..

I visited the library day before yesterday and found a book to satiate my craving for vampire novels. Ever since I have finished reading the Twilight saga I am really feeling lost in terms of what to replace the void with. It’s been quite some time since I finished the books but I do miss the excitement and anticipation of Twilight. It doesn’t help that I’m a sucker for a good love story. haha i sound so desperate but I truly enjoyed the Twilight saga. Every single book and every single movie I’ve seen so far. I’ve only seen Twilight and New Moon in terms of the movies and I thought that the characters and plot of the books were followed to a T.

In my opinion it’s very rare that the director follows the book so closely. I was very satisfied. But it’s unfortunate that people behave like trolls when it comes to fads like Twilight. They like to criticize more than appreciate. Since they are miserable and cynical about life they like to ruin when people express their enjoyment over it. That is why we have Twilight haters. I can understand if you’re not into it. Just don’t choose to read it. But why do you have to ridicule and hate it and those who are enjoying it? I’m seriously considering reading the whole series again just for kicks and maybe it will help pass the time till Gojira comes.

Not really short of reading material to be honest but it would give me something to romanticize about and the books are quite big hence would occupy my mind for some months at least. Anywho so I visited the new books section of the library like I always do. (I just love how they have the most random books in this section.. I discover quite a few literature gems there. ) I was skimming through the books when I came across the book 23 Hours. It’s about a vampire slayer who lands in a women’s prison and finds out there is a vampire in there making victims of the prison mates. I thought the concept was interesting and I’m even more excited about the plot as I started reading it during lunch today. Will let you all know how it turns out…

While I was reading it I came across the phrase “thinning the herd” and I just loved the concept of it. I love phrases and words that elicit imagery. It could have nothing to do with what they’re describing but its got to make me think of something and see a strong picture in my head. Feelings like these give me the hope that I will be a reputable author someday. I really hope to concoct some phenomenal story I can be proud to publish that readers can devour. Yes I have crappy grammar and I’m lazy about using correct english. But I think when I finally come up with the right story, I will be able to hire people to do the dirty work. Anyways the phrase “thinning the herd” made me think of the Serengeti in Africa with a herd of wildebeests thinning as they migrate. In the book it was referred to as a fight mechanism in which you thin the mob to fight them one at a time in order to avoid being jumped by all of them at once. It will be interesting to see how this book turns out. So far it’s gripping enough for me to wonder when the next break I’m going to have so I can continue reading. This light is turned off..

Am I mentally disturbed if I find Dexter extremely attractive? :P

Listening to I Made It by Kevin Rudolf

my next tattoo

Prying open my third eye. This is Tool’s third eye. This is the next tattoo I’m getting. This light is turned off.

Currently Listening to
Lateralus
By Tool

My Favorite Celebrity Couples

Yes a cheesy topic. but im fidgety and bored and procrastinating doing my work so here goes… these are my faves..

P!nk and Carey Hart. I like them because they are the typical punk rock couple. They in spite of having rough patches have made it work. For one of the MTV award ceremonies P!nk was nominated but didn’t win the award so Carey came home and made her an MTV award out of aluminium foil. I regularly follow their tweets on Twitter and they are just too cute. I hope my Gojira and I look just as hot. He has tattoos all over his arm too.. except we wouldn’t be a punk rock couple.. we would be a heavy metal couple.. me the imposter.. tsk =P

Heidi Klum and Seal. I find it ironic and beautiful how such a gorgeous model can fall in love with the way Seal looks. As humans we can be very vain. I am guilty of it myself too. I won’t deny it. Apparently he has those scars on his face from a medical condition he had when he was younger. I remember watching a Christmas Victoria’s Secret show on television and Seal had sung two songs for the show. He started with Love’s Divine and as he started singing Heidi Klum the first “angel” walked out on stage. The connection that they had in front of everyone was just so intense and pure. I think they briefly held hands as she passed or she blew him a kiss or she did something I don’t recall exactly what… but it was just so beautiful..

Bipasha and John Abraham. This is a Bollywood couple. They aren’t like the other couples in Bollywood who look for attention and regularly get put in the tabloids for raunchy gossip. I think they complete one another and look out for each other in this hard core film business. They also don’t do roles just so they can be together. They respect their profession and are very classy. Gojira is a big fan of Bipasha :O

Michelle and Barack Obama. Yes the presidential couple. They look good together. They are keen on raising their girls right, they take the time to have personal moments in spite of being the president and first lady. That’s what life is all about. It shows their genuine character and you can tell it’s not just a bunch of fake emotion. I might be biased because I’m an Obama supporter. But how can you not love this couple. Just look at them. <3

Kristin Stewart and Robert Pattinson. I can hear the groans already. Yes. Twilight. AGAIN. what to do.. I can’t let it go.. Maybe it’s my childish desire to have the Twilight saga continue through their off screen romance. But I can’t help it. They look so good together. and I like the fact that they are seeing each other in real life.

Could you ever find a cuter couple? I remember watching the Ellen show when Portia was a guest. Ellen was practically bouncing off her seat in excitement at her wifey being on her show. Its really brave of them to be an openly gay Hollywood couple. I applaud them and hope that more people will be comfortable about being themselves after seeing them.

Will Smith really knows how to treat his woman right and they are just so committed to each other and look very happy. I think its endearing how he’s so giant tall and she’s this tiny little pixie.. They’re definitely one of the sexier couples..

COUPLES I MISS…

Charlize Theron and Stuart Townsend. If you don’t recognize Stuart he was the smoldering vampire who starred in Anne Rice’s Queen of the Damned movie. I was sad to find out that they have now called it quits after so many years.

Michelle Rodriguez and Vin Diesel. Ok technically not a definite couple. apparently they dated for a short time but I would have definitely liked to see them as a couple.. Their chemistry on set was unbelievable.

I really thought they would get married to each other.. I always liked them as a couple..

Are you a fan of any of these couples? If not, who are your favorite couples? Which couples do you miss? This light is turned off..

edit: and yes this got featured on lovelyish too!!! check it out =) http://www.lovelyish.com/723238868/my-favorite-celebrity-couples-and-ones-i-miss/

Currently listening to
Best: 1991-2004
By Seal – Love’s Divine

I Know What Victoria’s Secret Is…

I was kind of disturbed after reading this post about Victoria’s Secret on Lovelyish. I honestly refuse to believe that Victoria’s Secret is something that women can hate. The women who say they hate it are lying. I think they aren’t admitting that it’s more about self esteem . You know why? “Victoria’s secret” has nothing to do with the sexy lingerie that they sell. Victoria’s secret is the confidence of a woman feeling gorgeous and sexy no matter what she’s wearing. Victoria’s Secret is the kind of candy that every woman deserves.. I think just like all women look beautiful on their wedding day no matter what their age or size or body structure, they all look beautiful in Victoria’s Secret lingerie to their SO’s. I LOOOOVVVVE Victoria’s Secret. If I could help it all my under garments would be only of Victoria’s Secret. They are so comfortable and sexy and honestly it’s pretty affordable if you want to buy something special every couple of months. The ultra feminine experience of stepping into a Victoria’s Secret outlet is divine for me. It will make the most hard core tomboy feel pretty and feminine.. I love the plush pink carpets the perfumes.. everything about the whole experience!!! I really wish my city had a Victoria’s Secret outlet. But since they don’t I settled for some online window shopping.. Was checking out their latest collection.. These are some of my favorites..

The first, second, seventh, and tenth were my absolute faves… (couldn’t narrow it down more than that..) Did you have any favorites? I am generally crazy about boy shorts, lace, anything black, and teddies.. Gojira has a partiality to anything really soft and satiny.. How do you feel about buying lingerie? Is it a divine experience or a humiliating one? I don’t think lingerie is anything to be ashamed of.  Speaking of which I have to clear the air and say how I’m so impressed with Gojira he had the balls to go into a lingerie store in K (very conservative country) and pick out two sexy lingerie outfits for me. People in India are pretty conservative too, though not as much as K. I do feel embarassed to go to a lingerie outlet here in my city cuz sleazy fat guys will hang around outside and watch who goes in and who comes out and sneer it’s really pervy and creepy.. After getting inspired by Gojira I’ve decided to pull up my socks and go get something special to wear before he lands here. I don’t care what kinda stares I get from those fugly lechers. Have to surprise him the first night he gets here and I will brave them and go get something sexy and special. Maybe even something for him too. loll..

edit: my post got featured on lovelyish, yay!! =) http://www.lovelyish.com/723018689/i-love-victorias-secret/

Currently listening to
Rude Boy (2-Track)
By Rihanna

for ciecolamore… fun survey

Five things about you that are ordinary:
1) I am 5’1”.
2) I like to swim.
3) I have long curly black ringlets.
4) I talk in my sleep and I love to sleep in.
5) I am a kid at heart.

Five things about you that are special:
1) I was adopted when I was 10 days old.
2) I have neuro cardiogenic syncope.

3) I have met Nana Patekar on several occasions, spoken to Cyrus Broacha over the phone and shaken Hilary Clinton’s hand. (The first two are Indian celebrities.. think Jack Nicholson and Jack Black of Bollywood.)
4) I play the piano pretty well though I’ve forgotten how to read music.
5) I am scared of people and making friends because of how often I get used and hurt.

Five things that you do well:
1)Skiing and swimming.
2) I make white sauce pasta better than the gourmet chefs on the Food Network channel and the only thing I can make without looking at a recipe.
3) I love to get creative and use my imagination when it comes to drawing painting and writing.
4) I can think like a DJ when the moment is right.
5) When the right song is playing I can dance like no one is watching when everyone is watching.

Five things that you fail miserably at:
1) Anything related to Math and Science.
2) Finishing work and projects early.
3) Being fearless.
4) Not being stubborn.
5) Controlling my temper.

Five things about your personality that you love:
1) I can be optimistic and hopeful even when the worst gets me down.
2) I am polite and respectful even when certain elders don’t show me the same courtesy.
3) I am not a finicky eater, I have a hearty appetite and I’m pretty comfortable trying new cuisines and delicacies.
4) I am crazy about all kinds of music and love adding to my collection.
5) I am very conscious and paranoid of other people and make sure to keep everyone comfortable and content when it comes to my actions and how I feel about them.

Five things about your personality that you hate:
1) I can be very gullible.
2) I can be impulsive.
3) I let people walk all over me at times.
4) I have a hard time controlling my tears when a baby is crying.
5) I lack in areas of general knowledge because I don’t read the newspaper as much as I should. (I love reading it, I just don’t buy it and don’t have time to read online.)

Five things about you that are obvious to everyone:
1) I’m short.
2) I’m an American Desi.
3) I get excited very easily.
4) I fumble over my words when I get nervous.
5) I wear my heart on my sleeve.

Five things that you wish everyone knew about you:
1) I may have simple dreams but there as important and amazing as anyone else’s.
2) People think I reject my Indian culture, but it actually rejects me. I relate to being an American more because being it is more accepting and versatile, it can be anything I want it to be.
3) I know Hindi is the national language of India but it is not my mother tongue. I am not amused when you find that a funny matter.
4) I will talk a lot when I feel extremely comfortable with you and like you.
5) Do not step on my heart it’s already been broken before.

if you’re bored or want to kill some time. you can copy these questions insert your own answers and tag me! =P This light is turned off…

I’m so glad it was all a hoax!!

I think millions of womens heart thudded to a stop momentarily yesterday when a nasty rumour had gone around saying that Johnny Depp was fighting for his life and possibly dead after a car crash off the coast of France. I though no. It couldn’ttttttttttttttt be and yet I was so terrified thinking that yet another life cut short… (in the wake of Brittany Murphy’s passing) People think that film stars theyre just heart throbs and good looks. but  not all of them are so vain.. Johnny is not only graced with killer looks but amazing acting talent. My gojira also said to me once. “If i turn gay, it will be to have sex with Johnny Depp.”

So after surfing through the Internet and reading up I was relieved to find out that it was just a stupid hoax and he is alive and well. I took over a year to digest the fact that Heath Ledger was gone. I don’t know why that had to happen he was one of my favorites. He was destined for great things… But I’m not going to delve on the sadness I’m going to be grateful that Johnny is alive and well… This is a post to celebrate his life and the wonderful things we still have yet to see from him… I’m looking forward to all of his movie projects… Alice in Wonderland, Sin City 3, Shantaram, Pirates Of The Caribbean 4 and The Rum Diary…  can’t wait… so enjoy and bask in his glory y’all… he still has many more years ahead of him.. cheers to you Johnny… to health, wealth and a long happy life.. Are you a fan of Johnny? What are your favorite roles? 46 of my favorite pics of Johnny for the 46 glorious years that he’s been alive… This light is turned off…

old inspiration…

This is an inspirational essay written by Mary Schmich in 1997 which was published in the Chicago Tribune. This essay has been most famously used for giving advice to high school seniors who are ready to go out and make it in this big bad world. Many of you may have seen/heard this essay. It was remixed into a song by Baz Luhrmann in 1998 called “Wear Sunscreen.” I think even though most of us have already past the threshold of graduating high school we can still take something from this essay and apply it to our lives in some small way. Below is the orginal essay Mary Schmich published in her column back in 1997..

“Inside every adult lurks a graduation speaker dying to get out, some world-weary pundit eager to pontificate on life to young people who’d rather be Rollerblading. Most of us, alas, will never be invited to sow our words of wisdom among an audience of caps and gowns, but there’s no reason we can’t entertain ourselves by composing a Guide to Life for Graduates.

I encourage anyone over 26 to try this and thank you for indulging my attempt.Ladies and gentlemen of the class of ’97:

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they’ve faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts. Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long and, in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t. Maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t. Maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They’re your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you’ll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you’ll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair or by the time you’re 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…”

Some people may see a lot of cliches and be bored of this by now but I still love the inspiration I get from this essay. This light is turned off…

Currently reading
The Ultimate Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy
By Douglas Adams

I’ve got a crush… a crush on HER!?! =O

Hmmmm…. so like ummmmm….. yeah! hahah… I find it so funny that I have a crush because for me, crushes were like phases in high school… day dreaming about Devon Sawa or that cute popular smoldering boy in class that you would never ever have the guts to go up and talk to..

But now I’m 27 and I’ve been over the fairyland phase of having crushes for years now… Crushes to me are really a superficial phase where u confuse love with infatuation and think its your whole world and then you get over it. I reserve the word crushes for people who I’m superficially attracted to… if its a person who’s really special that I have feelings for I would never call it a crush. That would be too demeaning I feel. I never thought this crush phase would revisit me again and that too to be a woman… In college I did a drop (yes a drop!) of experimentation where I felt I was a bisexual. I kissed a girl at a party. There were two best friends and they wanted to know what it was like to kiss a girl and since they trusted each other they decided to do it with each other. I also joined in. (One girl was a terrible kisser, I felt like she was all saliva and it was just so gross… the other was a REALLY good kisser… she had the softest lips I’d ever kissed and she had a warm mouth and she really knew how to kiss with ferociousness and passion… ) Most people would disagree and say that just french kissing a girl or two at a party would not make me bi. But I really think I am because I can drool over Jessica Alba just like any other man. But I don’t think I would ever have the opportunity or feel the need to confirm what my sexual preference is. First of all living in India has its limitations. There are lesbians and bisexuals living in India but they’re rare and hard to find. Maybe if I was in California with my family I’d have the guts to find out IF I was single.

Anyways back to the subject, I started watching The L Word a couple months back. I was trying to find a replacement for Weeds because I enjoyed that show so much and I wanted to watch something else that might be good. I knew it was a show about Lesbians and I wanted to see what it was all about. After watching the first two seasons of The L Word I enjoyed the characters but I hated the constant unfaithfulness and the cheating and the affairs. I just really didn’t get a good vibe watching the show anymore.

But did I stop? No. Because I was curious to see what happened in the next season. Just for the record I strongly dislike Jenny… she switches her role from innocent victim to raving psycho whenever it suits her.. she scares me honestly. Dana, Alice, Tasha, and Helena were the characters I really liked. (I liked Bette too in the beginning but she dropped as one of my faves maybe it was the affair and the cheating and her power hungry controlling attitude.) My main squeeze was ironically the most flighty promiscuous character in the whole show. Yeah, that would be Shane McCutcheon. I don’t know why. I think it was something about her androgynous look and her awesome hair and her attitude towards her friends and her willingness to try and be faithful. So yeah she’s my ultimate crush right now… I know as time goes on this will fade… but I just wanted to record it so I look back on this entry maybe years from now, like I look back on all the rest of my crushes and smile =) Below is a collection of pictures of Katherine Moennig, the actress who played the role of Shane McCutcheon on The L Word. What were your crushes when you were in school? Do you have any crushes now? This light is turned off…

Currently watching
The L Word: Final Season