Well here is another big blank in my blog.. I know I keep saying I’ll be regular with my blog every time i get a chance to write but I can’t help it.. so much drama in my life and stress that by the time I get home I’m simply exhausted. I just have no energy to do anything I set out to finish. I dont regret getting married at all. I love my man. But it has changed my life and my priorities considerably. And I don’t care how many people hoo haa at my comments but the truth of the matter is that…. having a husband is like taking care of a CHILD. yes a child. for example my recent trip to ny for my sis’s wedding. Usually when I pack for a trip. I start putting stuff in my bag a week in advance and when time comes to leave I just have to organize. Because I spend the week thinking over what I’ll need it was very rare that I ever missed out on anything I needed. But this trip I had spent so much time packing my man’s stuff that I had missed out and forgotten a lot of my stuff.. and in spite of telling him to check whatever i packed for him 3 days before we left he still complained and thought I was the big bad wolf for not bringing something or the other…
Right now we’re starting to make our way towards finally flying out of the nest. It seems like we have been living with my parents forever and there has been a lot of drama trying to keep everyone happy. I’ve felt like a yoyo being bounced between husband and parents because when my folks are happy my husband is not and when my hubby is happy my parents are not. It can make a girl psycho if you know what I mean. I know that like 95% of the issues will be solved if we move out and have our own space but right now with me the only one earning we have no choice. The good thing is that my man finally got his working permit. We have changed our minds about San Diego and have decided settling in San Francisco will be a better fit for us and in terms of his career. He will be my bread winner so we have to go where his prime pickings are. But I seriously dont know what to do about his lack of initiative or excitement or lack of go get em’ attitude. I know to be fair he has not had a lot of exposure living in the US but there are plenty of people who come from abroad and though they are unfamiliar with the lifestyle and what to expect are zealous to over come their competitors in terms of education and careers. I worry a lot about this and had no idea this was an issue until recently.. (disconnect.. never completed this post.)
