OUR FATHER – LORD’S PRAYER
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name, Thy kingdom come, Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For Thine is the Kingdom, the
Glory and the Power forever. Amen.
Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with Thee. Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen.
Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning is now and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
These are the 3 main prayers I try to say on a daily basis. I say them like clockwork every morning during weekdays and I try to say them on the weekends but since weekends I don’t really have a routine I sometimes forget. I am really kicked about the fact that I have now completely memorized the Glory Be prayer. Memory is not my strong point so it takes a while for things to click. I don’t think it should be too long till I am able to say all 3 prayers without reading them. I am already finishing my sentences as I’m reading them because I’ve read these prayers so many times now. It gives me great satisfaction knowing that everyday I pray and give thanks to the things I have in my life. I think prayer keep us humble and grounded human beings. I also take the time to wish that things in the future work out for me. It gives me time to focus on my short and long term goals. I have thought a lot about the fact that most of us tend to pray only when we need something and I don’t want to be that person anymore. I want to pray rain or shine.
One month left till we find out the status of Gojira’s visa!!! I predict the news will come early on in December since immigration will probably want to square away some of their work before Christmas. (I’m hoping!) I have a feeling same time next month I’ll have the results. I think they will be good. I will keep praying and have all body parts crossed :)
I have become conscious of my insecurities since I’ve been praying. I think some of my insecurities lie in the fact that I know I’m adopted and I was abandoned in an orphanage. I have a constant feeling of rejection which has festered inside of me for quite a while and I’m learning with my prayers to let go of it. I have a habit of taking my insecurities out on the people surrounding me by doubting their feelings, actions, etc. to be genuine towards me. I won’t lie. it has affected my relationships with my immediate family and my relationships with others in the present and past. I guess with Gojira whether he is aware of this insecurity or not, he always puts me in my place. I mean that in a good way. He always knows how to shut me up when my insecurity comes out in the way I talk and give me his genuine insight and tell me when I’m going wrong. Because we listen to each other we get over most of our arguments fairly quickly. I don’t think I’ve ever had anyone who’s really listened to me and it means a lot. I was not conscious of this insecurity I had until pretty recently. Through prayer I am learning to handle it and overcome it.
Yes I was adopted and essentially saved from a life of extreme poverty… I was adopted by supportive parents who have provided me everything I could ever need while growing up and even now. but it’s hard to explain the pain of knowing my real parents abandoned me. Maybe they did it for my own good because they knew they could not give me a proper life but I think its been hard to overcome because I’ve not really had the parent child bond I’ve seen everyone else experiencing. Maybe this resentment has made me feel so neglected. I know it sounds petty but I can’t help the way I feel. It could also be the reason why I feel so passionate about having children. To fulfill that bond I’ve never had. I plan to have my own children for sure and possibly adopt. But lately with my prayers that I say everyday I feel healed of this insecurity and feeling of abandonment. I feel a bond forming with God and more importantly with Our Lady of Perpetual Help, which is what Mother Mary is known as. I feel like she’s picked me up and taken me under her wing. She is gradually filling the holes in me day by day and I no longer feel so angry or sad about what I am and where I came from. It’s just another reason for me to believe in the power of faith and prayer. I feel like I’ve hit another level in my spiritual journey and it keeps me motivated. I don’t feel so alone and lost anymore and it has given me the confidence to step forward with my feet firmly on the ground.