having a blah stage…

Im going through a blah stage.. i don’t know what else to call it.. I am happy but im so dissatisfied at the amount of time its taking for me to get on my feet. I went to an interview and it went very well.. but they’re still developing a team and will be getting back to me in 2 weeks.. also the pay is not that much.. but there are no jobs out there so it’s tough.. I just don’t know what to do.. I have no friends in Cali so I don’t even have a reason to step out of the house.. I feel claustrophobic.. sigh… i’m so fed up with my job hunt that right now i just don’t care. i cook now almost everyday.. takes away a lot of the stress in my mom’s life and she’s pretty content. but she can be finicky to the point where she just won’t eat it or she won’t want to try something new. sigh.. life is very annoying right now.. i want a reason to get out of the house right now.. and i want it to be work.. work come knocking on my door please =( this light is turned off…

Am I mentally disturbed if I find Dexter extremely attractive? :P

Listening to I Made It by Kevin Rudolf

hola from california!!!

June 2nd is when I arrived in California so it’s been over a month since I arrived. I pictured myself giving updates week by week but I’ve been so busy getting accustomed to the life back here that I really didnt’ feel like blogging.. so many new things and was just feeling so lazy..haha.. I was supposed to blog about my time spent with my gojira and that didnt happen either… maybe i’ll get around to it on some really oh so boring day of my life.. ive missed being away from xanga.. but i guess ive been happy since i made the big move to california.. i am no longer holed up in a dingy apartment… im no longer eating alone or feeling depressed.. i am simply a happy bunny.. there is some guilt accompanied along with the move because I am now one of those 27 yr old adults living with their parents…sounds lame after being independent and on my own for the past 5 yrs. but mom doesnt want me to be alone anymore and would rather have me living at home till the marriage plans take place. I just sent out the visa forms for gojira so he can come here under the fiance visa… should be all set in 4 months.. hope they approve it and don’t run into any complications. I also got my california license… all this time i was scurrying around because i thought i didnt have a valid ny license anymore and thought i would ha ve to take the california driver’s test all over again.. one big headache but turns out i found my valid license from ny and it WASNT expired which meant i only had to take the written!!! it was awesome.. but the silly dodo that i was i ended up studying the online tutorial on the california dmv site instead of studying the driver’s manual so i barely passed.. ur allowed to get 6 wrong out of 40 something questions and i got exactly 6 wrong.. that was a big phew… the freeways/highways are not as bad as i thought they would be.. i drove on them for the first time last weekend.. california driving is a lot faster and of course more agressive but im gaining my confidence as im driving more and more…the worst part about highways is the merging..i get so nervous.. but im pretty good around the neighborhood.. driving here is verrrrrry different from what i was used to in buffalo.. it was a lot more slower and easy. im still on the big hunt for a job.. ive quit my freelancing besides the odd data entry work here and there.. i just cant seem to focus on getting a decent job with that job looming over me… and i think my uk boss has lost interest in me so its given me more incentive to move on to greener pastures.. i’ll admit i did not anticipate getting a job would be this hard.. so ive decided to get something temporary like a grocery cashier or some job in a boutique store till i find a job in internet marketing. that’s my plan at the moment… i’m also in the middle of ripping down wallpaper from my parents guest room so i can paint it and do some murals.. its in bad need of a makeover since right now it has kiddy car wallpaper and some metallic throw up wallpaper from the 90′s.. ugh… lol.. once i get the walls painted a light grey lilac sort of color i will be doing a thai theme.. here are some of the designs i will be recreating and putting up on the walls.. well its kind of complicated what i like from each of these designs but it will all come together once i am finished and i will be sure to take pictures… here are some of my inspirations of thai art i am going to incorporate…

If any of you have any sort of thai/oriental pics you could share with me to help me with this designing process it would be a big help.. I guess I’m thai obsessed these days.. Gojira and I are thinking that we will have our honeymoon in Thailand as well.. There is a romantic place there called Koh Samui and it seems like the perfect getaway for a honeymoon.. plus it’ll be cheap if we go directly there from India after the wedding.. apparently going to thailand is cheaper than some destinations within India! Ill be going to Michael’s today to pick up some art supplies… I’ve been getting a lot of time to get into my creative self once again… i havent drawn or done anything crafty for at least 6 years.. i just stopped drawing painting, imagining and it feels good to get back into it once again..i had some time to take out my dad’s camera and take pictures of their garden just for the heck of it… i would love to put all 100 something up here but i guess it would be quite a big task uploading so ill just share some of my faves… the plums and tomatoes were also picked from our garden..

Ive spending some weekends with my sis up in long beach and im enjoying catching up with her. Last weekend she took me to the Long Beach Depot For Creative Reuse and it was amazzzzzing… It had all this stuff that people didn’t want and it was marked down so you could buy it and create something out of it… they had a lot of cool ideas of art crafts you could make with them…From there I bought a vase with a feather design on it for a $1 and a frame with a thick border for a $1 i thought i could do some stained glass painting on the vase and make a collage on the frame and put a nice pic of gojira and i in it..i can’t wait to go back and now that ive started working on renovating and making over my parent’s guestroom im sure ill find a lot of funky stuff in there to put up on the walls…

http://thelongbeachdepot.org/

My sister also took me kayaking and bicycling along the beach front.. it’s such a pretty area and everyone is out about in the sun.. i definitely want to move to that area with gojira if i get the chance.. anyways… that’s all ive been up to lately.. i will be more regular now and i will soon be checking and commenting on all of your blogs i will be freed up from a lot of work as soon as this weekend is over =).. this light is turned off… <3

Listening to Pocketful of Sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield